so, today, i was checking out the blogs of you, my dear friends, and i just happened to notice that my inactivity caused me to get the boot off of anne's chit chat. a mild panic attack ensued and now, here i am. i've been a terrible blogger friend. and i think i'm afraid that this says something about the kind of friend, mother, wife and daughter i've been in real life, lately, too. i don't feel that i've been present to you all, and for that, i owe a sincere apology. to you, and to myself... (because clearly, i've been the one truly missing out!)
i have this little problem, you see. i've always been an all or nothing sort of gal. so, if i don't have the time, energy, patience, etc. to give something my 100% attention, then i sort of flake out on it. seems to me i have an intense fear of failure, and i haven't figured out how to accept "good enough" from myself. have i told you this before? probably. it continues to be my greatest flaw. gosh...this is really turning into a bummer of a fresh start.
my next greatest flaw is using more words than are necessary to get my point across. so, please excuse my rant. what i'm getting at is that you.....(and if you're reading this, that means YOU!) are so very important to me. and i just wanted you to know.
3 comments:
YOU too are so important to me Allisa! Probably don't say it enough...but every time we gather around a table and share a meal and conversation it reaffirms how important our friendship is...looking forward to seeing you soon.
so glad. no such thing as failure here. any little thing you can share from a few hours away is precious. love to you.
for a moment i heard some of your words echoing in my head - in my own voice....as if could have said them. please keep sharing so that I can get to know you better....
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